Today was a better day for many reasons. Yesterday I woke up not feeling good, and both Rob and I wondered for the first time if this might be more of a marathon than a simple 5K run (Rob feels 5K runs are hard too, but that's losing the analogy). So, although we had glimpses of good times (our music time posted yesterday), much of the day was filled with tiredness. I felt guilty that my "sickness" was affecting Rob and the kids, and he felt guilty that he needed a small break from the madness. So by the evening, tension was present. After talking through it we realized, that we just don't know when it's going to end, but realized yet again that we just need to trust that we are in God's hands, He loves us, and we can rest in that. We don't really have to know what's next to be able to rely on God's provision for us.
And then we decided to go to church this morning despite my fatigue and nausea. Wow, is all I can say. As Rob said in his post, it truly did feel like Blake Holmes was talking to us. The sermon was based on the book of Ruth chapter one (Faith in times of Famine-June 6, 2008). I encourage you to listen! Blake made many references to what he has felt this past year during his "famine." His son Gage was diagnosed with leukemia one year ago, and it's been a tough year of trial for the Holmes Family. Their blog has encouraged me in many ways.
The thing I took away most from the sermon is that this trial is our chance to share how God is working, how he is faithful, and how he is loving. Even if I don't understand what he is doing, I know He is good. I know His word is true. I know He is my ultimate comfort. It is tough as we wait upon the Lord, but as the song said this morning, "strength will rise", strength that only comes from the Lord. Rob and I don't have the strength to handle this, but we can do all things through Christ who gives us strength.
The words to the Brenton Brown song that Rob referred to in his earlier post are below.
Strength will rise as we wait upon the Lord
We will wait upon the Lord
Our God, You reign forever
Our hope, our Strong Deliverer
You are the everlasting God
The everlasting God
You do not faint
You won't grow weary
You're the defender of the weak
You comfort those in need
You lift us up on wings like eagles